01c. 2010 ADBut my lazy lack of faith, my in-vogue atheism, has taken away the safety net hanging beneath our children's lives.Rosamund Lupton / quote ↗
02c. 2010 ADI get up and pace the room, as if I can leave my guilt behind me. But it tracks me as I walk, an ugly shadow made by myself.Rosamund Lupton / quote ↗
03c. 2010 ADFor years I had a fantasy of a happy-ever-after ending. The first night I spent at the university my fantasy ended, because I thought a happy-ever-after was pointless. Because with my father I didn't want to hope for a happy ending but to have had a happy beginning. I wanted to have been looked after by Daddy in childhood, not finding resolution with my father as an adult.Rosamund Lupton / quote ↗
04c. 2010 ADBut, astonishingly, I'm not broken. I'm not destroyed. Terrified witless, shaking, retching with fear, yes. But no longer insecure. Because during my search for how you died, I somehow found myself to be a different person. ... Living my life. And it wouldn't be my grief for you that toppled the mountain, but love.Rosamund Lupton / quote ↗
05c. 2010 ADHowever hard and however long we love someone who has died, they can never love us back. At least that is how it feels...Rosamund Lupton / quote ↗
06c. 2010 ADI don't believe outstandingly beautiful and charismatic women create obsession in what would otherwise be normal men, but rather they attract the weirdos and the stalkers; flames in the darkness that these disturbing people inhabit, unwittingly drawing them closer until they extinguish the very flame they were drawn to.Rosamund Lupton / quote ↗