01UndatedI wasn't going to have enough money to pay for a Good Lifestyle, which meant I'd feel ashamed, which meant I'd get depressed, and that was the big one because I knew what that did to me: it made it so I wouldn't get out of bed, which led to the ultimate thing—homelessness. If you can't get out of bed for long enough, people come and take your bed away.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
02UndatedI'm waiting for her to say "Craig, what you need to do is X" and for the Shift to occur. I want there to be a Shift so bad. I want to feel my brain slide back into the slot it was meant to be in, rest there the way it did before the fall of last year, back when I was young, and witty, and my teachers said I had incredible promise, and I had incredible promise, and I spoke up in class because I was excited and smart about the world. I want the Shift so bad. I'm waiting for the phrase that will invoke it. It'll be like a miracle within my life. But is Dr. Minerva a miracle worker? No. She's a thin, tan lady from Greece with red lipstick.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
03UndatedWhether it's sleeping or playing video games or riding my bike or studying. Giving my brain up. That's what's important.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
04UndatedIt's not a mental complaint-it's a physical thing, like it's physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out. ... you stumble on them as they gather behind your lower lip. So you just keep quiet.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
06UndatedI ask the nurse wrapping up her dispensing duties if I need any meds, and she says I'm not scheduled for any. I ask her if I can have some. She asks what I need them for. I tell her, to deal with this crazy place. She says if they had pills for that, they wouldn't need places like this in the first place, would they?Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
08Undatedyour relationship with air—that’s key. You can’t break up with air. You’re kind of stuck together. Only slightly less crucial is water. And then food. You can’t be dropping food to hang with someone else. You need to strike up an agreement with it.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
09UndatedI shrug. I don't really need to explain this to Aaron. He's been demoted from most important friend to friend, and he's going to have to earn that, even. And you know what else? I don't owe people anything, and I don't have to talk to them any more than I feel I need to.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
10UndatedIt's not a big thing, but I guess it's true- big things are often just small things that are noticed.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
11UndatedI didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
12UndatedLike I'm on the verge of just blowing up. All the stress and pressure and anxiety just bubbling up.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
13UndatedAfter college, I went through my own shit and decided that all physical suffering in the world couldn't compare to mental anguish. And when I got myself, I decided to help other people.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
16UndatedI am a guy," I say."And I hate boys," she says."But a guy's different," I say."Maybe a little," she says.Ned Vizzini / quote ↗
