01c. 1982 ADSometimes I feel as though there are two me's, one coasting directly on top of the other: the superficial me, who nods when she's supposed to nod and says what she's supposed to say, and some other, deeper part, the part that worries and dreams... Most of the time they move along in sync and I hardly notice the split, but sometimes it feels as though I'm two whole different people and I could rip apart at any second.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
02c. 1982 ADI keep quiet and look out the window. The light is weak and watery-looking, like the sun hast just spilled itself over the horizon and is too lazy to clean itself up. The shadows are as sharp and pointed as needles. I watch three black crows take off simultaneausly from a telephone wire and wish I could take off too, move up, up, up, and watch the ground drop away from me the way it does when you're on an airplane, folding and compressing into itself like an origami figure, until everything is flat and brightly colored - until the world is like a drawing of itselfLauren Oliver / quote ↗
03c. 1982 ADI wish I could close my eyes and be blown into dust and nothingness, feel all my thoughts disperse like dandelion fluff drifting off on the wind.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
04c. 1982 ADIt won't matter if nobody ever thinks I'm pretty (although sometimes I wish, just for a second, that somebody would)Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
05c. 1982 ADThis is the past: It drifts, it gathers. If you are not careful, it will bury you.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
06c. 1982 ADIf you're ever wishing for things to go back to the way they were. You just have to look upLauren Oliver / quote ↗
07c. 1982 ADThis is the past: It drifts, it gathers. If you are not careful, it will bury you. This is half the reason for the cure: It clean-sweeps; it makes the past, and all its pain, distant, like the barest impression on sparkling glass.But the cure works differently for everybody; and it does not work perfectly for all.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
08c. 1982 ADI’ve been in the Wilds for a month and a half now, and in that time I’ve almost forgotten about the fences. It’s amazing how close I have been, all this time, to my old life. And yet the distance that divides me from it is vast.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
09c. 1982 ADI suppose that's the secret. If you're ever wishing for things to go back to the way they were, you just have to look up.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
10c. 1982 ADSuicide. A sideways word, a word that people whisper and mutter and cough: a word that must be squeezed out behind cupped palms or murmured behind closed doors. It was only in dreams that I heard the word shouted, screamed.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
11c. 1982 ADSympathizer.It’s only slightly better than the other word that followed me for years after my mom’s death, a snakelike hiss, undulating, leaving its trail of poison: Suicide.A sideways word, a word that people whisper and mutter and cough: a word that must be squeezed out behind cupped palms or murmured behind closed doors. It was only in my dreams that I heard the word shouted, screamed.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
12c. 1982 ADBut all you see is the crap. So you don't have to believe in anything. So you'll have an excuse to fail.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
13c. 1982 AD....love and desire enjoy a symbiotic relationship, meaning that one cannot exist without the other. Desire is an enemy to contentment; desire is illness, a feverish brain. Who can be considered healthy who wants? The very word want suggests a lack, an impoverishment, and that is what desire is: an impoverishment of the brain, a flaw, a mistake.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
14c. 1982 ADHere's the last thing that occurs to me as Sarah recedes in the rearview mirror, slamming out of the car, jogging across the parking lot: If you're one tardy away from missing out on a big competition, you should probably make your coffee at home.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
15c. 1982 ADYou should only fall in love with people who will fall in love with you back.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
16c. 1982 ADI met an Invalid, and fell for his art. He showed me his smile, and went straight for my heart.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
17c. 1982 ADWhat's poetry?" I've never heard the word before, but I like the sound of it. It sounds elegant and easy, somehow, like a beautiful woman turning in a long dress.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
18c. 1982 ADCould it be? Samantha Kingston? Home? On a Friday?” I roll my eyes. “I don’t know. Did you do a lot of acid in the sixties? Could be a flashback.” “I was two years old in 1960. I came too late for the party.” He leans down and pecks me on the head. I pull away out of habit. “And I’m not even going to ask how you know about acid flashbacks.” “What’s an acid flashback?” Izzy crows. “Nothing,” my dad and I say at the same time, and he smiles at me.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
19c. 1982 ADThere is only what you want and what happens. There is only grabbing on and holding tight in the darkness.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
20c. 1982 ADSometimes day and night reverse. Sometimes up goes down and down goes up, and love turns into hate, and the things you counted on get washed out from under your feet, leaving you pedaling in the air. Sometimes people stop loving you. And that's the kind of darkness that never gets fixed, no matter how many moons rise again, filling the sky with a weak approximation of light.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
21c. 1982 ADBecause I think you're right. You can make a difference." He told me experiences were kind of like fate, and fate usually came in the form of a test. He told me fate liked to be worshiped. It liked to see us fall on out knees before it offered to help us up..." ♥Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
22c. 1982 ADIs what I did really so bad? So bad I deserve to die? So bad I deserved to die like that?I what I did really so much worse than waht anybody else does?Is it really so much worse than what you do?Think about it.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
23c. 1982 ADYou broke my heart.I fell for you and you broke my heart.Period, done, end of story.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
24c. 1982 ADLies are just stories, and stories are all that matter. We all tell stories. Some are more truthful than others, maybe, but in the end the only thing that counts is what you can make people believe.Lauren Oliver / quote ↗
