01UndatedI gave them everything I had, and I guess it feelsalright.I gave them my body,and they use it every night.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
02UndatedDrugs may know how to numb a brain, but the past never forgets to resurface.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
03UndatedThe homeless dudes on Alameda all have legs any runway model would kill for, and sometimes I think of giving them money, but— I don’t know, I’ve got bills to not pay, and drinks to make people buy for me.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
04UndatedI think it’s pretty common to hold onto people, to bribe them with things, say, a body, in the hopes of keeping them from leaving you. I don’t think it’s uncommon to invert such behaviors, to become something unlovable, in an effort to speed up the process of the inevitable. Fighting is an instinct. So is running. Everybody knows how to destroy a good thing. It’s easy.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
05UndatedWhat if I were to tell you the game’s been rigged, that I was destined to win from the very beginning? To be clear: Winning is subjective. For the record: I win by losing, by avoiding the confusion of possibility, the sheer terror of potential. To make a long story short: I win when I lose and I lose by running, by pushing you away.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
06UndatedI’ll be too drunk to fight when you ask why I prefer to hurt, so I’ll start hurling stupid phrases like I love you at your naked chest, but no matter what I try, they’ll all sound like cheap threats.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
07UndatedI think sometimes we gravitate toward broken people, not ’cause we want to fix them, but ’cause we want to fix ourselves. The line between selflessness and selfishness is thin and intangible. It’s imaginary. We can’t see it. People project their problems onto other people’s problems. It happens all the time. We see ourselves in each other. We can’t help it. It’s human nature.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
08UndatedDo you think dogs enjoy fucking? Or is it something so primal, so intrinsically necessary that it just happens, just occurs? Do you think animals can fall in love? I let you fuck me from behind almost every single night, always wanting to be kissed, but still, I refuse to roll over.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
10UndatedI need to move. I don’t fit in here. I almost tried a juice cleanse once, but quickly remembered that I could starve, and was starving, myself for free.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
11UndatedYears from now, I will pass this same park, and I won’t remember any of this.Instead, I will feel something like a spark— a heat like Augustin a suburban town,and a desire to groweven when I know I’ll be cut down.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
12UndatedWe skip school and we ditch chores. We haunt shopping malls and grocery stores. House parties grow dull, but Amy's boyfriend is a dealer and we find ways to pass the time.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
13UndatedApathetic in my adolescence,my heart is fluorescent. It flickerslike liquor store lights in the ghetto.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
14Undated...stars are dying all the time. Some explode. Some collapse and cave in on themselves. Those ones become black holes. Others get sucked up inside of them just for getting too close. Guilty by association. Prosecuted for proximity.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
15UndatedCry wolf often enough and you eventually get eaten by the wolf, even if the wolf is you.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
16UndatedI want to know exactly how many pieces of myself I had to give away before I became something else entirely.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
17UndatedUnder the influence, I am easily influenced. I try to keep my pants on, but some things are easier said than done.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
18UndatedIn the soft light of morning, the sky outside turning light blue, my answer is always and still: “I’m fine.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
19UndatedMy slurred speech isn’t from one or nine drinks too many, it’s from my father.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
20UndatedMy blood makes noise. And I’m saying this now, because I have a strange gut feeling that it will be silenced someday soon.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
21UndatedEverywhere I go, I kind of half stumble, half stomp. If there’s a balcony within a hundred feet of me at any given time, I am on it— smoking a Marlboro light 100 and complaining about something.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
22UndatedI know it sounds a bit trite, but I really do get everything I want now. They say life is a game, and I guess I might agree if the stakes were a little higher, but it’s just so easy to fall into a cycle. I get bored.Kris Kidd / quote ↗
24UndatedYou preach cleanliness,so I try to keep my room clean,but I feel no closer to God, and I guess that’s okaybecause he doesn’t knowwho he’s fucking with anyway.Kris Kidd / quote ↗