01c. 1981 ADThat's why we have memory. And the opposite of memory— hope. So things that are gone can still matter. So we can built off our pasts and make future.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
02c. 1981 ADI try to think of things to say but nothing comes, and if something did come I probably couldn't say it. This is my great obstacle, the biggest of all the boulders littering my path. In my mind I am eloquent; I can climb intricate scaffolds of words to reach the highest cathedral ceilings and paint my thoughts. But when I open my mouth, it all collapses.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
03c. 1981 ADI wish I could read what she's written there. Instead, I pretend the letters are stars. The words, constellations.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
04c. 1981 ADEven as I think them, the words lose their context, dissolve into grains of absurdity in the vast ocean of day-to-day hunger.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
05c. 1981 ADWe will cry and bleed and lust and love, and we will cure death. We will be the cure. Because we want it.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
07c. 1981 ADOf course, if I eat all of him, if I spare his brain, he'll rise up and follow me back to the airport, and that might make feel better. I'll introduce him to everyone, and maybe we'll stand around and groan for a while. It's hard to say what 'friends' are any more, but that might be close.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
08c. 1981 ADYou should always be taking pictures, if not with a camera then with your mind. Memories you capture on purpose are always more vivid than the ones you pick up by accident.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
09c. 1981 ADSo if existence was just binary, dead or alive, here or not here, what would be the fucking point in anything? My mom used to say that's why we have memory. And the opposite of memory--hope. So things that are gone can still matter. So we can build off our pasts and make futures.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
10c. 1981 ADMy mom used to say that’s why we have memory. And the opposite of memory—hope. So things that are gone can still matter. So we can build off our pasts and make futures.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
11c. 1981 ADWell we have to. We have to remember everything. If we don’t, by the time we grow up it’ll be gone forever.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
12c. 1981 ADI’m alone, stumbling through the city in the dark, trying not to let the night freeze my blood.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
13c. 1981 ADSex, once a law as undisputed as gravity, has been disproved. The equation is erased, the blackboard brokenIsaac Marion / quote ↗
14c. 1981 ADYou and I are victims of the same disease. We're fighting the same war, just different battles in different theaters, and it's way too late for me to hate you for anything, because we're the same damn thing. My soul, your conscience, whatever's left of me woven into whatever's left of you, all tangled up and conjoined. We're in this together, corpse.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
15c. 1981 ADYou can order yourself to treasure a moment, to cling tight to a feeling and never let it fade, but it’s your brain, that three-pound lump of hamburger, that makes the final call.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
16c. 1981 ADSome part of me remembers what snow is, but this is the first time my new mind has seen it. It softens the crumbled sidewalks and turns rusty rooftops white. It’s beautiful. It crunches under my feet as I move toward the house, longing to understand.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
17c. 1981 ADThe ethics of eating people are blurry at best in the fog of my undead amnesia, but I expect more for such a high price. What I want are the moments I will never have. The warm ones. The living ones.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
18c. 1981 ADMy mind has cleared a little; I’ve regained some instincts and associations, echoes of the Living world if not actual memories. Those I still have to steal.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
19c. 1981 ADI should stitch my mouth shut. Honesty is a compulsion that’s damned me more than once. But I just can’t hold it in anymore. The words build and explode out of me like an uncontainable sneeze.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
21c. 1981 ADWhat happened? How did I get here? How could I have known that my choices mattered?Isaac Marion / quote ↗
22c. 1981 ADDeep under our feet the Earth holds its molten breath, while the bones of countless generations watch us and wait.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
23c. 1981 ADIt’s more eerie to be alone in a city that’s lit up and functioning than one that’s a tomb. If everything were silent, one could almost pretend to be in nature. A forest. A meadow. Crickets and birdsong. But the corpse of civilization is as restless as the creatures that now roam the graveyards.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
24c. 1981 ADSuddenly exhausted, she closes her eyes and slips into nightmares again. Graveyards rising out of the ocean. Her friends’ corpses in the light of their burning school. Skeletons ripping open men's chests and crawling inside. She endures it patiently, waiting for the horror film to end and the theater to go dark, those precious few hours of blackout that are her only respite.Isaac Marion / quote ↗
