01UndatedWe kiss again. This next kiss is the kind that breaks open the sky. It steals my breath and gives it back. It shows me that every other kiss I've had in my life has been wrong.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
02UndatedI force my eyes upward and look at Mia for the first time. She's still beautiful. Not in an obvious Vanessa LeGrande or Bryn Shraeder kind of way. In a quiet way that's always been devastating to me. Her hair, long and dark, is down now, swimming damply against her bare shoulders, which are still milky white and covered with the constellation of freckles that I used to kiss. The scar on her left shoulder, the one that used to be an angry red weld is silvery pink now. Almost like the latest rage in tattoo accessories. Almost pretty.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
03UndatedWe stand there for a moment, staring at each other, savoring it. And then all at once, we slam together. Mia's legs are off the ground, wrapped around my waist, her hands dipping in my hair, my hands tangled in hers. And our lips. There isn't enough skin, enough spit, enough time, for the lost years that our lips are trying to make up for as they find each other. We kiss. The electric current switches to high. The lights throughout all of Brooklyn must be surging.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
04UndatedIt takes a certain kind of naiveté, or perhaps just stupidity, to know how things will end and still hope otherwise.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
05UndatedAdam is crying and somewhere inside of me I am crying, too, because I'm feeling things at last. I'm feeling not just the physical pain, but all that I have lost, and it is profound and catastrophic and will leave a crater in me that nothing will ever fill.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
06UndatedSleep would be so welcome. A warm blanket of black to erase everything else. Sleep without dreams. I've heard people talk about the sleep of the dead. Is that what death would feel like? The nicest, warmest, heaviest never-ending nap? If that's what it's like, I wouldn't mind. If that's what dying is like, I wouldn't mind that at all.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
07UndatedIs that what death would feel like? The nicest, warmest, heaviest never-ending nap? If that’s what it’s like, I wouldn’t mind.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
08UndatedIt's okay if you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than I've ever wanted anything in my life. But that's what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It's okay if you have to leave us. It's okay if you want to stop fighting.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
09UndatedBut that's the thing with death. The whisper of it descent travels fast and wide, and people must've know I'd become a corpse because nobody even came to view the body.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
10UndatedSamo mislim da su sprovodi vrlo slični smrti. Možeš imati želje i planove, ali na kraju ipak nemaš kontrolu ni nad čim.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
11UndatedGreen trees against the sky in the spring rain while the sky set off the spring trees in the obscuration. Red flowers dot the land in the breeze's chase while the land colored up in red after the kiss.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
13UndatedTo be or not to be: that is the question. That's from Hamlet's - maybe Shakespeare's - most famous soliloquy. I had to memorize the whole speech for sophomore English, and I can still remember every word. I didn't give it much thought back then. I just wanted to get all the words right and collect my A.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
14UndatedThat happens a lot with Shakespeare. The women go after what they want the men wind up suckered into things.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
16UndatedShe didn't care that people called her a bitch. 'It's just another word for feminist,' she told me with pride.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
17UndatedNeither sleet nor rain nor a half inch of snow will compel me to dress like a lumberjack.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
18UndatedBut now here I am: No money. No place to stay. It should be my worst nightmare. But I don't care. It's funny the things you think you're scared of until they're upon you, and then you're not.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
19UndatedSometimes we meet people and are so symbiotic with them, it’s as if we are one person, with one mind, one destiny.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
20UndatedShe said it was because one day I was going to have to go through a metamorphosis like a caterpillar transforming into a butterfly and that scared me, so butterflies scared me.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
21UndatedYou never know what will last."He said that earlier, about accidents, about never knowing which one is just a kink in the road and which one is a fork, about never knowing your life is changing until it's already happened."I think sometimes you do know," I say, my voice filling with emotion.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
22Undated...that whole day, being with Willem, being Lulu, it made me realize that all my life I've been living in a small, square room, with no windows and no doors. And I was fine. I was happy, even. I thought. Then someone came along and showed me there was a door in the room. One that I'd never even seen before. Then he opened it for me. Held my hand as I walked through it. And for one perfect day, I was on the other side. I was somewhere else. Someone else. And then he was gone, and I was thrown back into my little room. And now, no matter what I do, I can't seem to find that door.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
23UndatedI run my finger along the crease of the envelope, feel the weight of history inside. Wherever I'm going next, these are coming with me.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
24UndatedDon't be scared...Women can handle the worst kind of pain. You'll find out one day.Gayle Forman / quote ↗
