01UndatedI'm afraid it will never be perfect again. I am indelibly stained. Forever redefined, but blurred around the edges.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
02UndatedWhen did creating a flawless facade become a more vital goal than learning to love the person who lives inside your skin?Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
03UndatedNonfiction speaks to the head. Fiction speaks to the heart. Poetry speaks to the soul. It's the essence of beauty. The essence of pain. It pleases the eye and the ear.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
04UndatedA chatWith the Grim Reapershould be enough to scareaway any thought of relapse.Wish it were that easy,but not even days conversingwith death can disintegratethe claws of addiction.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
05UndatedIt's probably weird to think about an addiction like it's a sentient being, but that's how it feels. Like it's something living inside you. Something you can't get rid of because killing it means killing you. I can't really understand addictions to drugs or alcohol. Things that control you. But an eating disorder is an addiction you control. Wait, is that paradoxical? I prefer to believe not.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
07UndatedLife was radical right after I met the monster.Later, life became harder, complicated.Ultimately, a living hell, like swimming against a riptide,Walking the wrong direction in the fast lane of the freeway, Waking from sweetest dreams to find yourself in the middle of a nightmare.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
08UndatedIt's probably weird to think about an addiction like it's a sentient being, but that's how it feels. Like it's something living inside you. Something you can't get rid of because killing it means killing you.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
09UndatedI thought he'd run if he knew. Instead, he offered help, not that I believed he could possibly help. I thought he'd turn his back, close his heart, slink away. Instead, he promised sanctuary.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
10UndatedAnd the scary thing is, I’m on a fast track to that same aviary. Unless I find my wings.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
11UndatedHave you everhad so much to saythat your mouth closed up tightstruggling to harnessthe nuclear forcecoalescing within your words?Have you everhad so many thoughtschurning inside you that you didn’tdare let them escapein case they blew you wide open?Have you everbeen so angry that youcouldn’t look in the mirrorfor fear of finding the face of evilglaring back at you?Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
12UndatedGhostsTake shape under moonlight,materialize in dreams.Shadows. Silhouettesof what is no more. Butghosts don'tbother me. The day bringsbigger things to worry aboutthan flimsy remains ofyesterday. No, spooks don'tscare me.Gauzy apparitions mightprank your psyche oragitate your nightmares,but lackingflesh and bloodthey are powerlessto hurt you-cannot hopeto inflict the kind of damagethat real, livepeople do.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
13UndatedLife is all about change. If it were static, think about how boring it would be. You can't be afraid of it, and you can't worry that you'll mess things up.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
14UndatedWhat's the point of being a hero when everyone thinks you're a villain?Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
15UndatedInnocence eroded into nightmare.All because of very bad touch.Love, corrupted.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
16Undated...Things happenedwhen you were little. Things youdon't remember now, and don't wantto. But they need to escape,need to worm their way outof that dark place in your brainwhere you keep them stashed.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
17UndatedLibrarians were like guardian angels, with graying hair and beady eyes, magnified through reading glasses, and always read to recommend new literary windows to gaze through.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
18UndatedDisappointmentCan do a couple things.It can drop you into a giantsucking sinkhole ofdepression,a place you have to fightto climb out of. Or itcan trigger an epicmaniato overcome the oddsand transform failureinto success. Say youswingas high as the chains willtake you because you seekthe thrill of flight, and on theup-kick, you lose your seat.Injury is likely. But if youworry about fallingdown,and never chance "up,"the sky will remainforever out of reach.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
19UndatedBabies aren't born cruel or filled with sick desire. Evil is not intrinsic. It's fashioned.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
20UndatedForever has no meaning when you're living in the moment. I wasn't ready for that moment to end.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
21Undated...I know there's no such thing as forever. So what can we be, in the now?Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
22UndatedWhat I don't like is what it sometimes takes to win. Backstabbing. Manipulation. Out-and-out bribery once in a while, and not always the monetary kind.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
23UndatedI don't believe in God, don't believe in the devil. Unless you want to count my mother. She might be Satan's sister, I suppose.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
24UndatedSomething stirred beneath my skin, some being inside I'd only suspected existed, demon or angel, I couldn't say.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
