01UndatedWords have power. The power to soothe. The power to skewer someone through the heart. The power to render someone speechless.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
02UndatedSo you try to think of someone else you're mad at, and the unavoidable answer pops into your little warped brain: everyone.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
03UndatedLiving means taking chances. Risks. Playing safe all the time is being dead inside, even if you happen to still be breathing.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
04UndatedLightThat's how I feel-like the winter-fringedbreeze might scoopme up into its wings,flyaway with me trappedin its feathered embrace.I am a snowflake.A wisp of eiderdown,liberatedfrom gravity. My bodyis light. Ephemeral.My head is light.I want to swaybeneaththe weight of air,dizzy with thought.Light filters throughmy closed eyelids.The sun,chasing shadows,tells me I'm notafloat in dreams.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
05UndatedMe? Beautiful? I'm plain as cardboard. That may be how you see yourself, but the rest of the world would be hard to agree. You shine brighter than the Milky Way.Now there are those who might try to take that from you, but you don't have to give it away. Keep on shining Pattyn.And when the right young man comes along, he'll love you all the more for giftin' this sad planet with your light.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
06UndatedForgiveness isn’t my best thing.Easier staying pissed. But I’mtired of being pissed all the time.Tired of feeling hurt by stuff thatcan never be fixed because it isan indelible part of the past.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
07UndatedIn fact, since the accident, Mom doesn't love anyone. She is marble. Beautiful. Frigid. Easily stained by her family. What's left of us anyway. We are corpses.At first, we sought rebirth. But resurrection devoid of her love has made us zombies. We get up every morning, skip breakfast, hurry off to work or school. For in those other places, we are more at home.And sometimes we stagger beneath the weight of grief, the immensity of aloneness.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
09UndatedHave you ever had so many thoughts churning inside that you didn’t dare let them escape, in case they blew you wide openEllen Hopkins / quote ↗
10UndatedAfraid to die loveless. Because I think if you die without knowing love in this life, that's how you'll spend eternity. Alone. Frozen. Do you think hell is fiery? I don't. I think hell is frozen.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
12UndatedI wonder how long it would take him to realize I'm right as sin - it's the rest of the world that's wrong. I'm not even sure how I qualify for admission to Aspen Springs. Does wanting to die equal losing your mind?Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
13Undated...what good would it do toshutter your windows, neverdream of rainbows or find hopein promises? Why choose to walk awayrather than hold your groundand fight for love?Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
14UndatedAm I more afraidOf taking a chance andlearning I'm somebodyI don't know, or of risking new territory,only to find I'm the sameold me? There is comfortin the tried and true.Breaking groundmight uncover a sinkhole,one impossible to climb outof. And setting sail inuncharted watersmight mean capsizing intoa sea monster's jaws.Easier to turn my back onthese thingsthan to try tjem and fail.And yet, a whisper insistsI need to know if they are oraren't integral to me.Status quo is a swamp.And stagnation is slow death.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
17UndatedI nod, because I do understand. I'm just not sure how to go about divorcing myself from the evil I've already accepted.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
19UndatedFunny thing about the monster.The worse he treats you, the more you love him.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
22UndatedI felt angry, frustrated.I felt I didn't belong, not in my,church, not in my home, not in my skin.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
23UndatedAnger is a valid emotion. It's only bad when it takes control and makes you do things you don't want to do.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗
24UndatedEmpty is the perfect state of being. Nothing inside to anchor you. Nothing inside to chain you down, keep you from living your dreams. Empty, almost weightless, you are an eyelash afloat on a blink of breeze. You can rise about tension and worry, loosed from the grip of gravity. Adrift in thermal lift, you ride the wing of freedom and soar. Empty, you are Eve in Eden. Empty, you are what you were meant to be.Ellen Hopkins / quote ↗