01UndatedThe apartment is a laboratory in which we conduct experiments, perform research on each other. We discover Henry hates it when I absentmindedly click my spoon against my teeth while reading the paper at breakfast. We agree that it is okay for me to listen to Joni Mitchell and it is okay for Henry to listen to the Shaggs as long as the other person isn't around. We figure out that Henry should do all the cooking and I should be in charge of laundry and neither of us is willing to vacuum so we hire a cleaning service.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
02UndatedNow I wonder if it means that the future is a place, or like a place, that I could go to; that is go to in some way otherthan just getting older.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
04Undated. . .Tell me, Clare: why on earth would a lovely girl like you want to marry HAudrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
05UndatedWhen I began writing The Night Bookmobile, it was a story about a woman's secret life as a reader. As I worked it also became a story about the claims that books place on their readers, the imbalance between our inner and outer lives, a cautionary tale of the seductions of the written word. It became a vision of the afterlife as a library, of heaven as a funky old camper filled with everything you've ever read. What is this heaven? What is it we desire from the hours, weeks, lifetimes we devote to books? What would you sacrifice to sit in that comfy chair with perfect light for an afternoon in eternity, reading the perfect book, forever?Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
06UndatedHave you ever found your heart's desire and then lost it? I had seen myself, a portrait of myself as a reader. My childhood: days home sick from school reading Nancy Drew, forbidden books read secretively late at night. Teenage years reading -trying to read- books I'd heard were important, Naked Lunch, and The Fountainhead, Ulysses and Women in Love... It was as though I had dreamt the perfect lover, who vanished as I woke, leaving me pining and surly.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
07UndatedMama said, "Dreams are different to real life but important too.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
08UndatedWhen the woman you live with is an artist, every day is a surprise. Clare has turned the second bedroom into a wonder cabinet, full of small sculptures and drawings pinned up on every inch of wall space. There are coils of wire and rolls of paper tucked into shelves and drawers. The sculptures remind me of kites, or model airplanes. I say this to Clare one evening, standing in the doorway of her studio in my suit and tie, home from work, about to begin making dinner, and she throws one at me; it flies surprisingly well, and soon we are standing at opposite ends of the hall, tossing tiny sculptures at each other, testing their aerodynamics. The next day I come home to find that Clare has created a flock of paper and wire birds, which are hanging from the ceiling in the living room. A week later our bedroom windows are full of abstract blue translucent shapes that the sun throws across the room onto the walls, making a sky for the bird shapes Clare has painted there. It's beautiful. The next evening I'm standing in the doorway of Clare's studio, watching her finish drawing a thicket of black lines around a little red bird. Suddenly I see Clare, in her small room, closed in by all her stuff, and I realize that she's trying to say something, and I know what I have to do.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
09UndatedMartin said, "It feels as though part of my self has detached and gone to Amsterdam, where it—she—is waiting for me. Do you know about phantom-limb syndrome?" Julia nodded. "There's pain where she ought to be. It's feeding the other pain, the thing that makes me wash and count and all that. So her absence is stopping me from going to find her. Do you see?Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
10UndatedThe hardest lesson is Clare’s solitude. Sometimes I come home and Clare seems kind of irritated; I’ve interrupted some train of thought, broken into the dreary silence of her day. Sometimes I see an expression on Clare’s face that is like a closed door. She has gone inside the room of her mind and is sitting there knitting or something. I’ve discovered that Clare likes to be alone. But when I return from time traveling she is always relieved to see me.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
11UndatedIt's terrific, Clare," Henry says, and we stare at each other, and I think, "Don't leave me.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
13UndatedThat is what madness is, isn't it? All the wheels fly off the bus and things don't make sense any more. Or rather, they do, but it's not a kind of sense anyone else can understand.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
14UndatedI never understood why Clark Kent was so hell bent on keeping Lois Lane in the dark.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
15UndatedOur love has been the thread through thelabyrinth, the net under the high-wire walker, the only real thing in this strange life of mine that I could ever trust.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
16UndatedYou're my phantom limb, Mouse. I keep looking for you. I forget. I feel stupid, Mouse. Haunt me, find me, come back from wherever you are. Be with me.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
17UndatedWhen we were that young we invented the world, no one could tell us a thing.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
18UndatedWe come to a house and walk down the small walkway to its backyard. In the yard there are two screens and a slide projector. People are seated in lawn chairs, watching slides of trees.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
19UndatedEach spine was an encapsulated memory, each book represented hours, days of pleasure, of immersion into words.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
20UndatedHe would say her name over and over until it devolved into meaningless sounds - mah REI kuh, mah REI kuh - it became an entry in a dictionary of loneliness.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
21UndatedThe Garden Under Snow "Now the garden is under snow a blank page our footprints write onclare who was never minebut always belonged to herselfSleeping Beautya crystalline blanketthis is her springthis is her sleeping/awakeningshe is waitingeverything is waitingthe improbable shapes of rootsmy babyher facea garden, waiting.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
22UndatedI'm living under water. Everything seems slow and far away. I know there's a world up there, a sunlit quick world where time runs like dry sand through an hourglass, but down here, where I am, air and sound and time and feeling are thick and dense.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗
23UndatedHe was not in the house. He did not come back that night. Days went by, and at last she understood that he would not return at all.Audrey Niffenegger / quote ↗