01c. 1986 ADThese masked men were going to bring me to a cleaner place, where things were more sharply distinguished from one another and where I would finally have the space to figure out who I was without other people nudging me all the time into shapes they thought I should have.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
02c. 1986 ADThere's a kind of pressure that your own life muscles onto you, to do something just like you would do, to behave just like yourself.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
03c. 1986 ADThere was a hazy damp film in his eyes that I recognized from emotions in old movies, projected large on darkened screens.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
04c. 1986 ADShe was truly happy for the first time in her life, and it felt just like living in a small room painted all white, with windows looking out onto impenetrable forest.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
05c. 1986 ADOutside the windows, everything is getting darker. First the yellow dies from the light, then the green and pink. The world is a blue version of itself, momentarily, before the blue snuffs out, too and it is all night.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
06c. 1986 ADI missed you more now than I had when I lost you. I was forgetting the bad things faster than I forgot the good, and the changing ratio felt a little bit like falling in love even though I was actually speaking to you less and less.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
07c. 1986 ADKaren couldn't understand how these encounters had marked him, and she had always believed that a person without trauma was dangerous in some way, untested. Also bizarre: in all of his stories, Dan ended up succeeding.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
08c. 1986 ADI got up to go back to the kitchen and put the cake in the oven. Probably it would not go well for the cake, or for whoever tried to eat the cake. It did not look as though the cake was going to turn out particularly nice, having been made for confusing reasons and lacking certain essential ingredients. But what else was there to do? Wasn't a terrible cake better than some terrible cake batter?Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗
09c. 1986 ADThe past was just a place where uncontrolled freaks you had never consciously decided to include in your life entered it anyway and staggered around, breaking things.Alexandra Kleeman / quote ↗